Knowing What It’s Like

I’ve been wanting to push something into this space for a while now. I just could never put a finger on what it was.

Lately I’ve been thinking about this crazy, uprooted season of life we’re in and I’m stirred when I consider that every little moment is all a part of what God is doing in and through us both presently and in our future ministry endeavors.

If I’m not mistaken, there are others out there who are like me. We know what it was like to hear/feel/discern/sense the call to ministry. We understand the meandering that makes up the next few weeks, months….and years. We know what it’s like to not know what’s next. Uncertainty becomes the new norm and trust in the midst of that uncertainty becomes the new banner over us.

Praise God we have men and women, led by God in their own right, who have sought to slide in next to us. Their message? “This is what’s important in the call to the pastorate.” “These are the need-to-know’s when you’re headed to the mission field.” “It may be difficult, but the call to be a godly spouse is both sacrificial and sacred.”

The advice at our disposal makes me blush.

But lately I’m realizing that lost in the countless amount of things proposed to us, there aren’t many places anyone can hear from us.

Personally, I’m sort of enamored with “day in the life of…” material. Not because I desire someone else’s life, I’m just sort of curious about the goings on there. YouTube videos of the routine and mundane parts of the lives of President Obama, MLB prospects, musicians, farmers, actors, teachers. I eat it up.

When I felt called to ministry, I remember this same sort of desire welling up within me. “I need to know what it’s like,” I remember telling myself over and again. And here I am, ten years later, convinced that someone somewhere out there is telling themselves the same thing.

So as we gird up for the “noble task” ahead, knowing we aren’t quite fit for the burden and task God has put before us, let’s talk about it. Let’s lay open those incoherent ramblings and wanderings. Will I go here or there? Who do I need to be? Or, who do I need to become? What should I focus on? What do I need to know? How will I get equipped? Do I even need to be equipped?

I’ve asked those questions. I’m asking many more now. Here’s a little more about me so you’ll know where I’m coming from.

In the next few days, I plan to play a little catch-up with some updates about the Pastoral Residency program I’m apart of at Emmaus Church in Kansas City. Also, I’d like to shed some light on the crazy mix-mash of scheduling and assignments that has been my first two years of seminary.

I heard through e-mail and social media from a few people regarding my previous post about deciding to come to seminary. I’m wondering if there are more of you out there, not quite in the place you’ll eventually be in ministry, but looking for others like you.

Let’s chat.

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